With the onset of June, half of 2009 has passed. The second quarter of the year certainly wasn’t as eventful as the first. It did bring new experiences and challenges that continue to play out.
Ever so slowly I have begun to find a new normal in my life. Adjusting to the added responsibilities and roles takes time and a mindset change. Just trying to understand what the changes are takes some time. I give myself credit for accomplishing alot of tasks this quarter and maybe coming ever so slightly closer to intergrating all this into my life. I am certain there is more to come.
My Mom has had the biggest adjustment in many ways. Her life, while narrowed in her own home but familiar and reassuring, has widen at a time that her brain’s capacity for change is very limited. She has done well. On a day to day basis when she isn’t doing as well as I would like, she has taught me to look inside myself for patience, understanding and empathy. There is alot I have to learn about Alzheimer’s. She teaches me daily. I would so love to be “in the moment” as she is.
Moving forward into the unknown next, I hope for the wisdom I need to make decisions, have patience and see what I am learning. Holding fast to my own self/life is getting easier.
The garden has given us alot of beauty this year. Here are two examples: the tulip tree and the spice bush.
